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Monday, 28 October 2013

me NOW

astaga lama ndk update ohh. hahaha.

well sy ada life baru. d uitm kk. hewhew. bru abs sem 1 bh ney. and this friday which is 1 November , result ! huaaaaa. nervous ohhh lol.

i dont know what to say.

Monday, 3 June 2013

a part of me is missing

the title of this post doesnt suit the story i'm going to tell lol.

okay first , i'm going to tell about 'him'. yaa the one i called my crush. chee xD recently , he chat with me :) was so damn happy ! he hadn't got his cellphone yet. so it's hard to get in contact with him. miss him damn much ! :( don't know if he misses me or not. huh :/ but what makes me happy again is , he changed his twitter's name to the name that i made for him. a nickname that made for him myself. what does this mean ? chee. but , i am so so happy :)) text me soon :*

another story is. lusa i'm going to uitm kk ! omg. i'm so nervous. plus plus scared. and i'm not ready for the university's life. so afraid TT btw , wish me luck :))

Wednesday, 22 May 2013

confused much

omaigad. hm. so i didn't go for matrix. and i REGRETTED IT. REALLY ! it was a waste though. most of my friends are there.

so well i got the upu. diploma accountacy at uitm kk. 3 years ! aduy. and i really want the acca. it's my dream.

sa rasa mcm mau nangis ja lagi. kalau sa kaya kan sa nda pikir pjg pjg baa TT

uitm is ipta. murah cket. cket ja mau byr. but course nya tuw ba. dip ja. lma lg tuw.

kptm plak ipts. mahal gila ! but course dia yg sa plg mau. cat-acca. it's a professional program for accountancy.

sa bpkir juga. bgus sa ambl acca lepas diploma. tp lmaaaa sgt TT

sa masih hdup mnta duit sama parents lg. tuw la sa rasa bsalah. dorg juga tanggung sa mau bljr p mna. dorg smua. sa kesian ba sma dorg. aduy kalau la sa kaya ! duit nda menjadi masalah ba TT

saya perlukan seorang penasihat.

Tuesday, 7 May 2013

sambung study !

okay. here's what happened lately. sy mmg rncg maw kena bwa pg KML. tp skrg sy yg 2 hati skrg. eh salah. 3 hati =='' why ? first sy maw upu. and then ada progrm professional tuw at kptm lg. so bgney.

KML

cney banyak kawan. but byk urusan lagi sy maw urus ney. sana sekejap ja. then smbung degree. tp xbole kerja terus. peraturan ketat. x sesuai bg sa. aiseh. konon. haha. trus sa takut orentasi dia TT and cney struggle.

KPTM

ipts. mahal. but i can get a loan. or if im lucky , biasiswa kerajaan sabah. but that loan can turn into scholarship if i maintain a good cgpa. and sana sa apply professional ! ><' sioknya lau dpt. eis. struggle la.

UPU

i applied smua uitm. if i'm lucky , i'll get my first choice. diploma perakaunan. tp lmbat ! 21 mei. eis. trus sa xpyh struggle sgt lau sanaa.

so , which is the best choice ? can please give me opinion ?

Wednesday, 1 May 2013

i miss you

today is the first day of May. hey May ! please be nice to me ><' someone made my day today. boboy tweeted yesterday and i asked him where his 'friend' is. you know who. and i said "kirim salam" he said "kirim salam balik bilang :)" and i'm damn happy ! i smiled. it really made my day :D i tweeted with him using boboy's acc but only a while. i really miss you ! :(

i want to see you so badly. it's been 5 months since we haven't met each other. and i still have feelings for you. sorry. i know i can't. yet our feelings are just too complicated i can't even explain to people :/

i think i miss you too much even though you're never mine

Saturday, 27 April 2013

stressial

4 days ago , i broke up with him. yes. him. nazim clarence. mohd nazim clarence , 315 , sipitang-ian , and one of the guys i met that really fulfill what i want in my dream guy. but not all. something just got in the way.

he rarely texts me , or call me. he's too busy. i'm not used to this. furthermore , i don't know but , it's hard to forget those in my past. i'm scared that either one of us will get hurt. so i let him go. he accept it. he said i'm the perfect one for him. i was really sad that night. i almost cried. but no tears came out. i was determined. and that's the end of me being NC's :'(

i got the matrix offer. labuan. but i want upu ! i'm in a big dilemma right now. whether to go for matrix or wait for upu. stress ! money and documents and everything must be ready for the matrix registration. i have to think about my hair again. they dont want any colored hair there. yea ? so ? damn !

i cried because of that. because i'm too stress to think about this. furthering my study. and i have to think and make a great choice. a right choice* and my BIGGEST PROBLEM now is MONEY 

I'M SO desperate ! TT GOD , help me now please.

aku ada potensi menjadi gila kalau bgney trus ! TT 

macam maw nangis ja lagii. aduy susah nya hidupp. semua DUIT. DUIT DUIT DUIT. mohon mohon larh aku kahwin sama lelaki kaya ka apa ka. stress bgney terus. bukan aku ja kcean. adik2x ku lagi maw belajar. aku lagii paling banyak guna duit. kcean parents ku.

STRESSSIAL !!!!! 

Friday, 19 April 2013

Depressed !


aku pun nda taw larh napa. huh. stress jok. first , c nazim x melayan sa. smua dya ckp dya busy sedja. sejak kami gaduh bp dya x percaya sy tuw. sy ckp sy lbih pntgkn kwn dri dya. oke. my fault sbb kac sakit hati dya. tp dya bukan maw settle bagus bagus. sakit hati bila x kena layan. tp bila dya sms , mcm sa bwt nda taw ja. sa rasa sa takut sa tlmpau syg dya. itu la ni. sa tkut sakit hati. sa takut jadi macam dulu. sa takut kecewa. itula sebab sy bgney. ugh ! stress. what should i do ?

lagi satuuu. smua orang dapat tawaran uni yang bagus2x. sy d cney lagi. hanging. xtaw maw bwt apa jok. haha. itula malas sgt memohon. apa juak sa ney ? -,- bwt alasan sedjaaa. itula jadi bgney. sa kena mrah bh ari tuw. sdih nyaa.




Saturday, 6 April 2013

about me tawau and others.

skrg aku maw crta time kmi p twu ari tuw. sa ma pepe. well first dtg sna kna smbut. haha. kiliq kn dorank. cak kmu tgok ney.

kiliq kn dorank. ahaha. then pas ney kmi p mktb. waa , jmpa sgt larh rmai cguu. ehehe. 1 cgu lbih kurg 5 min larh cramahnya. haha. lma jo kmi sna. and kmi jmpa c ijam lg. trus dorank c acap , aloy sma zyan.



bgmbar lg kjap pas ambil slip. haha. then kmi maw p ambl mjalah. tp ndk smpt dohh. bkn ndk smpt. cgu farizan teda. huhu. jln punya jln. sa cri orank bh tuw. tp c khairi ekmal ja sa tjumpa. haha. yg maw d jmpa sbnrnya , teda. lum balik. zz.

lepas tuw , kmi maw balik da. sdih larh TT x tlmpu lma kmi sna. bp parents c atun menunggu kn XD


lepas tuw balik p rumah c atunnn. stay sna kn. mlm tuw kmi tgok lawak ke der 2 sma cerita kita. best. haha. esoknya plak kmi p karnival mara tuw. d dewan masyarakat tawau.


kmi msuk dlm larh kn. lepas tuw byknya orank. haha. byk btul booth di dlm. then 1 1 u kmi p isi borang. antam ja. isi ja kmi blg. haha.


smpi jm 1 lbih ka tuw. bru kmi kluar. d sna tjmpa c kikie , c dyg , c us , c ayin , ijot , ijam , syafiq akmad , acap , azyan , aslan , nizar , pandel , amzar , syafiq akmar , pejal , shadiq , im , nik. hm sepa lg ? nth. lupa da. ney ja sa ingt. haha. trus kmi p mkn. hee. smpt lg bgmbr d tndas XD


trus kmi p gerai dpn servay. kmi mkn martabak jawa , abc milo , abc buah , abc buah + milo and lekor. aish. berliur pula time type ney. maw mkn lg ! ><'



lepas tuw c miemy ndk ikut kmi. dya jln ma cweknya. then kmi p ep. tpt budaq HOT. wkwk. teda bh. kmi nek bus p sna. c pndel kn jnji maw blnja sa. tp xda kmi tjmpa. jauh jua dya. haha. so dya blnja sa relod ja.


kmi sggah dlu p beli mnuman. refresh kjap. haha. trus p cari salon yg hrga dya bpatutan utk highlight rmbut. then jmpa. yeee ~ haha. sa p m'highlight. dorank p jln2x kjap XD

lama tggu pnya lama. haha. akhirnya. yes ! this is what it looks like :D


ahaha. ney lagi 1 XD time tggu kreta bpa c atun ney. c ikok suda dluan balik. dpn grace plaza kmi. hee


balik rumah atun , rehat , mndi , mkn d luar , texting with him <3 then tdur. balik2x sa ttdur mlm tuw sbb pnt. ndk tbalas text dya ><' pastuw webcam sma c pus. ehe. esoknya kmi bgun. 8 lbih p airport. taw ka , rupa2xnya flight c pepe awl. dya t'tggl flight. haha. trus d beli tket mlm. then kmi balik rmh lg. rncg maw sggh mktb ambl mjalah and duit sham kop. tp blg time p airport la. so , tggu pnya tggu. c miemy yg htar kmi. lmbt suda time tuw. tkt t'tggl flight. huh ><' xdpt p mktb. then org yg aku maw jmpa tuw sms. sdihnya. aha. tedala. kwn lma bh tuw. hee.

trus d airport. terep sdih lg ney. haha. pdhal mmg sdih :(

durg curi2x p ambl. ndk sdar. haha.


smpt lagi bhaaa. haha

saat2x berpisah bersama mereka :(


then smpi kk. huh. sdihnya. maw lg lma2x bh. sudala x smpt jmpa smua org. eee TT

btw , this is my current hair now ! :D mcm korea ka ? wkwk. *perasan kejap. haha


terus smlm pnya smlm kn calling bh sma NC. then byk dya ckp. dya ckp dya serius btul sma sa. dya tlmpu suka sa suda. waa. terharu bh TT chee. wkwk. sa pkir dya men2x time dya bwa kpel tuw taw. sa pkir dya kac perasan ja. tp rupanya btul ? aiseh. haha. sa lega larh bh. bp sa pun makin suka da sma dya. sgt2x syg :) ee , jwank. wkwk. apa2x pun , iloveyou :*


Saturday, 30 March 2013

PLKN and so ON

oke larh. finaly updating my blog. hee. punya byk suda bnda berlaku ohh. time first sa masuk plkn kn , pnya sa pemalu tidak bergaul sma orank. smpi kbykan orank sgka sa smbong bh. haha. 2 3 ari sa oke suda. first week mmg bosan larh. kelas , kawad , bla3x. berpanas. ughh. sgt larh. haha.

then first week tuw juga mcm ada orank mnt aku , mnta nombor aku. aku bg la. sbb aku pun mcm mnat dya. tp lma2x. it's not that feeling. aku masih suka c adeq. haha. you know who law kmu bca post sa d bwh ney.
but lma lma , yg c adeq pun jrg suda sms sa. so , sy berjaya lupakan dya. ehe. makin lma sa sna , sa mnonjol time sa pg ikut mnari. haha. sot. dtg gila kn p ikut mnari. byk bnda blaku la.

makin lma , sy happy. sy rsa mcm xmaw ja kac tggl kem. so many things happened :/ ada byk orank meluah sma sa. tp semua sy reject. sbb sy ? x bole kapel law bukan orank yg sy suka btul2x.

then many memories larh sna. sy sma kwn2x sa. waa , best gyla. smpila ari kmi bpisah. gla. nangs ohh. sdih btul aku. xdpt trima hakikat. chee. haha. kluar dri plkn. mmg miss gila2x ! ><' balik2x post d group psl rutin harian. biasala nda dpt trima hakikat. wkwk. tp paling rugi kmi x dpt mnembak. cis. haha. tp best la juga yg lain2x.

kluar dri plkn ? hm. sy teda love life first. tiba2x ada suda skrg. sma siapa ? MNC. 315 <3 haha. naee. sa x bcnta dlm kem. wkwk. siapa tuw ? nti sa ctaw. haha. sa kac tguk gmbr. muehehe :P

roomates sy d dorm 3 !


celoreng ! haha :P

khidmat komuniti at pekan papar !


kami punya pilihan raya. konon ~ haha

kami wirajaya ! ehe

cgu wan ! JL paling hnsem. haha


DORM 3 MAHANOM WITH CGU ENOI :)

bendera ANTANOM ! my kompeni delta. haha. bendera yg x prnh kna tawan :P


malam penutupan :(

berpisah larh kami :((


adik leleng. adik larh sgt. dya lg tua dri aku. haha. tp mcm adik sa ^^


kawan rapat noor :)


bff jayphanie :)


Tuesday, 1 January 2013

2013 post :)

i started my 2013 with sending text messages of happy new year wishes to 79 people :)

then praying with my family :)

pastuw , ada org kol sa maw wish happy new year sbb dya mlas text dya blg. HAHA. lucu. first time kn d dgr ? hahaha. siapaa ? ohh. dya lelaki. dya kwn kuu. kmi rpat. e2 sedja. x bole ckp sepa. nti mrh gf dya :3

lpas tuw , blas sms new year segala tuww. flooded inbox sy :P

c beyn 1st wish happy new year sma sy :) then crush sy. muahaha XD

pendaftaran 2013 tuw bh. kwn mgadu prasaan , adik sma tman tp mesra kau mauu ? bole bhaa :)

i hope i can find a better one than youuu. haha. stakat ney kw yg 2nd mmnuhi cta rasaa sa. aisehhh. -.- slepas dyaa. hahaha XD

kenapa bh sy rasa sakit hati lagi ney ? HAHA. mcm taik ohhh. sa mls suda. azam. kac penuhi azam ! :)

lepas tuw , online sak aku semalam. then pagi 2013 , d mulakan aku bgun jm 7lbh g2. tgok ada msej. ohh. mmblas happy new year sedja. then jm 9lbh bgun npk ada msej jugaa. balas yg dri kwn kuu. c rey. hahaha. musuh kuu. scandal ku juga dya blg dlm pendaftaran 2013 tuww. wkwk XD

tp , teda2x la. men2x ja tuw. kami mmg bgtuw. suka men2x. haha. kwn ku spend tiap ari :P aku spen dya , dya spen aku balik . tukar2x ja kami. haha XD

lpas tuww , aku tdur balik. bgun jm 12. muahaha XD lmbt knn ? :P

hujan bhaa. siok tdur :3 bgun , mndi. on9. pastuw , men gme. muehehe XD

oh yeaa. pening ka kmu pendaftaran 2013 ney ? hahaha. sms bh tuw. maw jd apa konon tuk 2013 :3

lusa , sy mendaftar suda. PLKN-er. hahaha. mtila I ntiiii.


i hate it when i get hurt. when u're not even minee. haha XD


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