stressial

4 days ago , i broke up with him. yes. him. nazim clarence. mohd nazim clarence , 315 , sipitang-ian , and one of the guys i met that really fulfill what i want in my dream guy. but not all. something just got in the way.

he rarely texts me , or call me. he's too busy. i'm not used to this. furthermore , i don't know but , it's hard to forget those in my past. i'm scared that either one of us will get hurt. so i let him go. he accept it. he said i'm the perfect one for him. i was really sad that night. i almost cried. but no tears came out. i was determined. and that's the end of me being NC's :'(

i got the matrix offer. labuan. but i want upu ! i'm in a big dilemma right now. whether to go for matrix or wait for upu. stress ! money and documents and everything must be ready for the matrix registration. i have to think about my hair again. they dont want any colored hair there. yea ? so ? damn !

i cried because of that. because i'm too stress to think about this. furthering my study. and i have to think and make a great choice. a right choice* and my BIGGEST PROBLEM now is MONEY 

I'M SO desperate ! TT GOD , help me now please.

aku ada potensi menjadi gila kalau bgney trus ! TT 

macam maw nangis ja lagii. aduy susah nya hidupp. semua DUIT. DUIT DUIT DUIT. mohon mohon larh aku kahwin sama lelaki kaya ka apa ka. stress bgney terus. bukan aku ja kcean. adik2x ku lagi maw belajar. aku lagii paling banyak guna duit. kcean parents ku.

STRESSSIAL !!!!!